Today's entry probably wont be long (especially since I'm writing this in the dead of night, and it would technically count as an entry for the 21st :'( ), but let's see!
I woke up pretty late today, so I pretty much missed my entire morning routine. Great start to the day, right? Whoops! Since I've spent a lot yesterday, I decided to take a break from it today and just stay in.
It wasn't all gloomy though—I actually managed to tackle all my chores! I had been procrastinating for the past three days, but today I finally got them all done. (like holy hell i'm finally free!!!) After that... well, not much else happened. I played a bit of Project Zomboid, which was a nice escape, and then headed out to my yoga class.
Yoga was incredibly rejuvenating. It was hot yoga too, so I was basically roasting in there like a rotisserie chicken LMFAO! But honestly, it was amazing. I feel so stretched out and refreshed! I'm planning to go again this Saturday, so I'll make sure to update you on how it goes!
I don't really have much to update, but mentally? I've been feeling a bit more relaxed. I still do have the itching feeling that the holidays are gonna be gone in a flash, and that I've wasted my time, but I guess the steps I've done now are an improvement from my last school holidays where I bedrotted the entire 2 weeks away. Oopsies...
I need to start studying tomorrow, though. I've got a final due on the first day back, yeesh.
In case I don't see you again, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
June 19'
Op shops!
Today was super eventful! I would leave it at that, but I'm too excited, so this entry will be looong! It's not every day that you get to indulge in a little self-care, you know? I woke up early this morning and decided to actually make myself brekky instead of scouring through the fridge like some raccoon. You know, to clear my head off!
Anyways,
Mom had to go to work, so I ended up walking around the city all day. I also had to pick up my passport, so I guess it was meant to be! I did consider watching a movie, but then I remembered I was in dire need of a wardrobe update. Funny thing is, I didn't originally plan to thrift. I wanted to check out the new pop-up store, but oh my god, it was so expensive... And that's why I decided to thrift.
Recently, I've started to get back in touch with my feminine side. Usually, I wear a baggy shirt and pant combo, but these days I've been watching a lot of makeup tutorials. Pair that with my Instagram algorithm constantly recommending me the cutest dresses, and yeah, I folded. As if Lady Luck was on my side, I was close to basically the holy grail of thrift shops. West End was just a 10-minute walk away—how lucky! And so, I began to hunt for clothes.
I also stopped by this really cute bakery and ate a ham and cheese croissant for lunch. Yum!
Back to thrifting... I ended up visiting nine separate op shops. It was exhausting! The distance I traveled was about 10k in under four hours! Pair that with carrying bags, phew! Oh! And of course, I'm not going to leave you guys hanging without a picture of my haul! I ended up buying, give or take, about $100 worth of clothes. So, I got the following:
satin pajamas set
4 padded hangers
a black strapless cocktail dress
a long white spaghetti strap dress
a baby pink nightgown
2 winter trenchcoats
vintage levi's flare jeans
a long flowy flower skirt
a golden heart claw clip
I've actually struck gold, it's insane. You wouldn't get this amount of clothing in cotton on! I'm not gonna show the full haul, otherwise my whole journal is gonna be full of photos, so here are my favourites!
The golden heart claw clip is my new favorite accessory!!! I'm probably gonna wear it with every fit from now on, teehee!
I'm heading back to the city tomorrow yet again, and maybe this time, I'll probably roam around the mall, aand maybe watch a movie. Can't wait!
PS: I ended up getting sore feet from the walk... oopsies!
In case I don't see you again, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
June 18'
Thoughts about winter break...
Second day of school holidays gone in a breeze! It makes me kind of nervous...
I still haven't done a single word of my homework because I've been procrastinating. I HATE schoolwork. The mere idea of it shakes me to my core. I don't know why I find it impossible to complete. Ugh... Thinking about homework just reminds me of even more unwanted chores. I still need to finish some new orders that came in and send a few documents for work. What a bother!
And I just don't like it at all!! I hate the feeling of drowning under my to-do list! And call me dramatic if you want, but sometimes I lay in bed and think that if I'm this disorganised at this age, am I gonna be fucked when it comes to uni? Am I too late in hopping on to the self-improvement train?
Ahem... Let's pull back a little bit.
I know it isn't the end of the world if I do end up procrastinating the whole break and leave my studies to the last minute, and I know I won't implode on myself if I sometimes relapse into bad habits. Change takes time, doesn't it? As much as I bitch and whine about my problems, doing so isn't gonna do anything. I can't wallow like I did in the old times; no one's there to pick the pieces back. I'm just saying I don't want to grow up this fast!
But then again, I kind of do? As scary as reaching adulthood sounds (and is), I can't help but feel excited. Looking back, I remember the goofy smile I had when I stood beside my car, posing with a flimsy certificate saying I passed my P's. It's endearing watching myself grow up. I can remember the first time I touched the steering wheel, beads of sweat running down my temple as I inserted the key into the ignition, and now here we are. I'm graduating high school this year, and as much as it scares me, I feel glad that everything has worked out so far. Even though sometimes I slip into a depressive mindset, I remind myself that I've gotten this far. And that's something to celebrate in itself.
I just have to keep going. Little by little.
PS: I've finished my guestbook! Woohoo! Now you guys can send me little messages! Looking foward to your words of wisdom!
And in case I don't see you again, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
June 17'
Hello world!!
So this marks the start of my semi-anonymous online diary! woo!!!
Anyway...
Sooo, I might be a little unhinged in these entries. Just a teeny bit. Because it’s not like the internet is gonna tell on me, right? Uhm. Moving forward... What do people actually write in a diary though? Actually, scratch that, how 'polished' should a diary be? Or are there genres to it like music? If it's the latter, well, oh dear. This would probably be the equivalent of a garage band (my thoughts will be all over the place, at least at the start). Anyway, anyway. I'm getting sidetracked here. Okay, let’s start with the reason I’m starting this diary in the first place.
It’s not like I don’t have anywhere else to share my thoughts. Quite the opposite, actually. It’s just that I feel quite awkward with the idea of my IRL friends finding out how much of a weirdo I am, you know? And so, I made this crappy little site on a whim. But I’m pretty proud of it, though! Another reason I wanted to start this diary is because I've always had this fascination with this sort of thing. It’s like getting a glimpse of a person's innermost thoughts and feelings, and I wanted to share some of my own experiences, you know?
Uhm, what’s next... Oh! Today is the first day of winter break! I’ve been completely overwhelmed these past few weeks, or month, really... I suffered a huge friendship breakup, and it honestly took a big toll on my well-being. I couldn’t focus properly on school, nor was I able to keep up with my usually strict hygiene. I’m hoping these three weeks are enough for me to get back on my feet, strong as ever. I have a lot of things I want to do, so I'm a busy gal. Let me list some of the things down by memory...
Catch up on sleep
Make an online diary
Get back to my skincare regime
Go back to the gym
Clean my pc
Do my holiday homework
Study for the UCAT
Learn makeup
You get the gist. I'll be working on adding a guestbook because cbox is probably too much for me at the moment. Oh, and one last thing! I got to think of a way to close my entries! Like a catchphrase, or an image, or simply my initial? Something good! Hm... Ah well. Let's experiment.
In case I don't see you again, good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
